Relieved in its true meaning...

Today am not myself..as my head has been thinking long and hard...

I just sat and sent a text yesterday?
Was is worth really sending it I think?
Sometimes I do things led by my feelings and emotions, only to re-think and thoughts keep me thinking of whether or not it was all worth...
Was depressed the reason for the text..
...but did I let my emotions get the best of me?
..Is it sometimes worth to show your weaker side?
...Is it sometimes worth to tell other people how you feel?
...I am not sure but all in all at the end of the texting game...I felt so relieved

Relieved that I had someone I can share my innermost and deepest thoughts with
Relieved that I had someone who will always give me a shoulder to lean on no matter what
Relieved that I had someone who I can call upon anytime of day or night....

So relieved I feel like a heavy load has been lifted off my shoulder...

Relieved and free to share my deepest and innermost thoughts of fear, happiness, joy and sadness with this sweet and thoughtful human being :)

Today am not myself, maybe I am, maybe am not...coz sometimes and neither here nor there...but still this is me...

NOT TODAY....

Not today, I dont feel like talking, not today I dont want to even listen!
Not today just leave me alone! I am almost hitting the roof, as things keep piling!
Not today my dear, not today...and its not your fault, neither will I blame it on me..lol
I just do not feel like it!

I woke up feeling lousy today, I had to get something creative to do so as to make my brain think...or else I would be as lousy as the morning sun got me...

Sometimes, the moods just disappear and you are not into it any more...and times flies my dear..

I am trying to relax, breathing in and out trying to get my emotions all together so I can talk to you..but not today...some other time...maybe in the next hour, just maybe..

Maybe in two, three...hours..

Most definitely tomorrow I will talk to you, listen to you, laugh with you..

Just spare me for for today!